You Will Make Mistakes

lately i’ve been occasionaly thinking about the mistake that i made, the opportunity i didnt take because im too afraid to make mistake.

im not thinking about it like every day, but it often enough that it finally make me realize that there is something wrong, somewhere in my brain or body, but i dont know the exact reason, is it because im not going to the gym during this ramadhan? maybe, or is it because im in the new enviroment? i mean im not having an issue in this new environment, in fact im kinda enjoying it (i love getting into the new environment and make some connection from scratch) so i dont think its the new environment.

again and again i just scared of doing something because it has the possibilities to be wrong. in my head i sometimes think if its going wrong my life will be over instantly right at that moment, thats actually a crazy way to think about something lol, i mean why if its turns out to be a wrong decision? its kinda inevitable, we as a human will eventually make a mistake either we aware or not aware of it, but despite all that im just doing it anyway and lesson learned, its that simple actually but i dont know the thougts just not leave me alone lol.

so whats the cause of all this? i dont know, i really dont know whats going on, whats the reason behind all this thoughts, i mean i have this exact kinda thought like 5 years ago maybe, and i think i already solve it back then, but somehow it find its way back to me again.

or maybe im just overthink it? and maybe its just the way it works? like it is the thing that going to haunt me occasionaly for the rest of my life? and its normal? actually i dont know and i think its in our nature as a human, we dont know the reason behind many things in life, but its very important that we keep going through that, because we will eventually figure things out sooner or later. or never and thats okay.